“PRACTICE MAKE”S PERFECT, BUT NOBODY’S PERFECT SO WHY PRACTICE?”

My quote for 4 years running…

 "PRACTICE MAKE"S PERFECT, BUT NOBODY’S PERFECT SO   WHY PRACTICE?"

To tell everybody, frankly… I wanted to be that perfect person my whole life…

not that im a perfectionist pagdatin sa ibang tao, I dont expect much actually, but i expected na perfect ako sa lahat..

perfect friend, perfect kada, perfect kuya.. etc…

And it all started when i was courting someone way back grade school!

Oh yes! haha grade school palang nanliligaw na ako…

I was courting someone really close… katabi ko sya Grade 3 hanngang grade 5…

Not that we decided na magkatabi kami, Nagkataon lang 3 years running….

Katab koi sya, kaharutan… kakompetensya sa lintek sa spelling bubuyog!

At the end ng grade 5… I told her… I like Her!.. then hehe Thank You Daw!… I thought it was a good sign! pero malay ko ba.. first time ko manligaw nun! hahaha

It was in grade six when we were tragically separated… Magkabilang section kme.. but our rooms our only divided by ma movable wooden blinds style divider… So we kind a have a little of falling out kasi i promised her na babalik ako sa section na yun no matter what, nde ko naman nagawa… kahit anung petition ko…. 

We had this field trip..

Magkakasama grade 6 and first year, second year…

She was with her 2 close friends, dun ako sa opposite side nila…

Nagdidiscuss sila about thier perfect guy…

Syempre Daig ko pa si Green two ng Bioman sa pag gammit ng sonic ears para Marinig ang pinaguusapan nila…

she said…

" Ang gusto ko sa guy ung magaling mag guitara "

The moment i heard this.. nag try ako magaral ng guitara… My bro taught me the basics.. ako nalang mag explor…

The only problem is.. these fuckin hands cant stop shaking whenever she’s around (currently.. pasmado pala ako) I cant beat sa national Antheme ng school coz i look like somebody making duck shadows while doing the hawaian hoolo plus the shaking of hands… Turn off..     shit.

A friend of mine made a joke about the hands not stop shaking.. he told me maybe its a good thing…

• Whenever im cleaning.. im cleaning twice as fast kasi parang automatic brush na raw kamay ko…
• My teeth will be whiter than anyone else coz of the vibrating action im doing with may tootbrush…
• Instantly, may trabaho na ako sa hawaii.. as a hoola dancer
• When Im playing table tennins… ma-iintimidate kalaban ko kasi malilito sya kung ilan beses ko hinampas ung bola…
• And lastly… Sa pag guiguitara.. I dont have to stram the strings… ill just have to put my hands infron of the srings.. and let my shaky hands do the strumming…

Lahat ng perssonality trait na gusto nya pinilit ko maging ganun.. till one day.. All the lame excuses not to be with me got really anoyying.. and decided to stay away… Met someone and go on our separate lives…

Then nung pa grad na kme ng HS… On our.. recollection overnight at some nun’s missionary place…

We have this program na parang before mag part ang lahat…. sabihin na ang dapat sabihin.. approuching comebody.. with a lighted candle in the dark… I never expected her coming to me with eyes full of tears. … sobrang apologize sa years na nasayang na friendship… And the last thing she told me was…

Dont Change… be as sweet like you were when you where courting me.. tryin to be perfect sa lahat ng tao.. trying to sacrifice evrything kahit ikaw pa mawalan…

Hehe.. pinaiyak nya ako nun…

Since then try ko na nde ako nagbago….

Trying to be the same person I was…

^^