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August 1, 2010

Well what can I say… Its been a disappointing 2010 year for me. Comparing my single life right now and the life when I was in a relationship.. I can feel that its better to be single ngayon. Sure I had problems pero I feel that things are gonna get better starting august.

 I had a few problems at the office. Im shrouded with ridicule, criticims and even contriversy. All I can say is that they are doing this to make me improve in my work performance and the only way I can do this is to be better than any of them. please my supervisor who believed in me. Win his trust.. Ill be an officer soon. So to the people who are bringing me down, thanks and shut the fuck up. Im going to aim for the perfect attendance this coming months. thats going to be my start

 The thing I had with judy is something really special.. Parang HS lang diba. Knowing that she’s a scorpio like myself makes me understand her a little better. The secrets.. everrything. So in love with her. Pero its gonna take a lot of effort pa siguro and self imrpovement pa. Building the right foundations is still the best way to go for me.

 To be honest, im starting to like atteding seminars and im starting to like being there. Im feeling my spriritual groth and im feeling at peace there. Maybe ill start attending sa church nila soon.

Time to start saving up. Time to make a change for the better

 

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As I walk through the valleys of the shadows of death.. Nagbaon ako ng chicha at softdrinks…

March 15, 2010

Oh yes!! ladies and gentlemen im back.. and my thoughts are as messed up as my headline…

I had a very personal project which involves changing someone for the better…  I ended up failing…

Because of these project, I recently explored a world beyond my imagination. The “Underground Society of Las Pinas” where fraternities, booze, dubi and hot girls rules the street. It started when i was invited to a house party by a this young hot girl

(reffered as “ms. hot someone” ).

To my suprise, the house was like a “playboy mansion” with models as house bunnies. I would be lying if I said I didnt get turned on by the idea that such fantasy house exist in my own backyard. Thier lifestyle was party and sex all night and sleep and eat by day. I was “warmly” welcomed by the group and tagged me along to several disco bars, and several houses for a booze spree and women women women…. My lifestyle  became “work by day”, party and booze on night. No rest day for me as weekend made me vunerable to overnight booze and sleepovers with the house bunnies..

But I did not forget the main reason why I was there, I was with them to change “ms. hot someone” for the better as her family, sister, friends already given up. I believe that

“every decisions you make in your life make the life your going to live”.

And each decisions starts with a choice. I was there
for her to give a very different choice.. a safer, more grown up decision.
I stayed with her, guide her, took care of her, and went to every gimik she wanted to go. 

Unexpectedly, she met someone which undoubtedly had a better (or worser) influence than I do. He made her explore a lot of talkshit in his life as well as his talkshit richboy stories. Being ’stuck’ with her all the time made me go and drink on the streets as she and mr talkshit develop a relationship. I had a small hope that this will change her for the better, but It was a complete opposite.

She was exposed more to dubi because of mr Talkshit. in the impression that it would “look cool” (ah.. the days.. ). Mr talkshit manipulated her to buy more dubi for him. to think that she already had a son at her age she’d be more responsible (yes guys… she’s a total MILF..)

What hurts more is that the reason she was hanging out with me was the fact that she needed money to go somewhere and treated me as her “daddy”

I totally failed at my project…

I guess it really does take someone to make mistakes for them to change… And had to have a lot of will and conviction to make thier lives turn around…

and not just by some random guy who saw through her pain, and saw what was she in everyone’s eyes

 and wanted to make a change. 

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Dandy:

La lng :D cute blog :D pink and red :D hehehehehehe miss ko na kayo ni cj :D un lng :D ingatz lagi.. im always here when you need me :D don’t forget po ha :D

Jemtot:

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Andy:

nyehehe..what’s your drama this time..nah..joke!smile ka na lng then tawa ! hahaha like what we do!

Andy:

oist… T_T bored…wanna go home…but must be more patient!… T_T how’s cj’s blog? heard it got busted…

Andy:

oist… T_T bored…wanna go home…but must be more patient!… T_T how’s cj’s blog? heard it got busted…

jem:

Tinotopak… may pinapagawa samin iba ngayon.. you have any Idea how XML playlist can be used to upload mp3s and sync it into some site?

Andy:

nyahaha..sorry when i refreshed my page, my post here got re-posted…w/o me knowing exactly why… haha.. weird…

Andy:

Sorry.. i don’t even know how to do XML ..the only thing i know about it is that i see it at some random blogs and websites… that orange link thing… ehe… search mo web… GOOGLE :D haha… i got 1 hour to go and i’d be free from hell! im updating my blog… well trying to… got loads of things to write but im just to lazy to post them..ha ha ha

Andy:

Sorry.. i don’t even know how to do XML ..the only thing i know about it is that i see it at some random blogs and websites… that orange link thing… ehe… search mo web… GOOGLE :D haha… i got 1 hour to go and i’d be free from hell! im updating my blog… well trying to… got loads of things to write but im just to lazy to post them..ha ha ha

Andy:

Sorry.. i don’t even know how to do XML ..the only thing i know about it is that i see it at some random blogs and websites… that orange link thing… ehe… search mo web… GOOGLE :D haha… i got 1 hour to go and i’d be free from hell! im updating my blog… well trying to… got loads of things to write but im just to lazy to post them..ha ha ha

jem:

ahihi, its ok. maya maya. lang free ka na from that hell!! hehehehe

Andy:

yeah! 30 minutes to go!!! so can’t wait!!! must be a lil more patient! ano FINAL PLAN/S mo for tomorrow? make it quick! need response now!Dont want to absent myself from work if i wouldn’t get to hang out with anyone noh!!! that would be boring and stupid of me to do especially because me need money to spend!! hahahahahahaha!!!

anonymous:

your blog sux! it takes time to load! >:p not only that, the whole blog itself sux! hah hah hah! >:p i guess you suck a lot too! …. …. …. …. …. …. ….. …. hmm… ok now, i think i overly became mean! gomen. gomen. :p Andy toh!

andy:

JEM: ur mean! T_T (via SMS message) ME (via Tagboard): Ugh!…Duh!.. i think you missed the part of the message where i said .. “gomen. gomen.”

jem:

Just havin a rough day (unlike cj.. completong completong araw nya… actually umaapaw pa) .. good for her i guess….
Ilang hours nalnag nde ka na po bored dyan sa office ahihih
*Kurot *

jem:

Just havin a rough day (unlike cj.. completong completong araw nya… actually umaapaw pa) .. good for her i guess….
Ilang hours nalnag nde ka na po bored dyan sa office ahihih
*Kurot *

andy:

Oist! san mo nakuha ung GIF file na ginamit as “separator” hah?! kinda looks familiar!! i know i’ve seen it somewhere before you used it for your blog!!! either way, using it won’t change my stand about your blog! it still sux! hah!hah!hah! gotta love being mean! *bleh*

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